Looking Back, Looking Forwards

always with gratitude and love

Hello Dear Friend,

Well, another week has gone by, and what a week it has been for us here in the UK. We are mourning the death of Queen Elizabeth II, reflecting on her many, many years of service. It doesn’t matter if you believe in or like the monarchy, she gave almost her entire life in service to our country. King Charles III, it is going to be strange saying we have a king now, the Queen has been there my entire life. But change must come, it is the way of the world and at least she will be reunited with her beloved Philip now.

But enough, this combined with our new prime minister means that we look now towards an unknown future, a future which I can’t even begin to see through. But if we have love and compassion in our hearts I am sure we will prevail. I am here for you, I believe in you, you have got this, we have got this.

Sorry, this is a bit gloomy, isn’t it?

To lighten the mood, I think you all deserve an update on the saga of the spinning wheel…

Reader, or listener, depending on how you partake of these Sunday Letters, I have news!

The parts arrived! Huzzah!

The wheel is fixed! It is running so well now, I think my footman rods had been drying out for a while. oops…

But - my mind has been so busy I have not yet tried the meditational drumming whilst spinning… My bad. It is on the radar for later today. Why is it when your mind and life are really busy, and you know that a bit of meditation would help enormously, it is exactly those times that it is hardest to maintain the practice… If anyone has the answer I really would love to know.

Random Tarot Card Draw

On Thursday as part of my daily (ish) Tarot card draw, I drew the Six of Cups Card from the Llewellyn Tarot Deck. There were a few questions posed by this card according to the *Wild Card Tarot Book.

1. What has the past gifted you?

2. Is there anything you’ve lost as you’ve grown up that you would like to regain?

3. What will your legacy be?

The past, both long distant and not that distant, has gifted me a lot of pain, grief, trauma, mental health issues and physical health issues. I could sit here and say that had it not been for the death of Neil, I would be a completely different person now.

It would be true.

I would not have felt the need to hide, to be quiet, to fit in, or to please people. I would not have made some, no, a lot of the decisions I made in my youth. But on reflection, if I had not been through everything I have, I would not be me.

Not the me that sits here typing this letter to you dear friend.

Not the me that writes, at all. No angels, no dragons, no magic, no memoir, no stories at all.

Not the me who is studying for a degree with the Open University.

I would not be with Jo or have our fur kids.

So much of what brings me joy today, and hopefully for many years yet to come, all of it really, comes from the pain and trauma of my past, my history. it has moulded me, shaped me, like the glaciers creating mountain ranges and valleys. I am the product of my own evolution.

Think of your own life, the good times, the bad times, and/or the times you really would rather forget. Try to imagine your life without those milestones and incidents.
Can you?
They have created the person you are now, the person who is trying to look for the good in the world, trying to make our world, maybe even our planet, a better place to be. Would you be doing that if life had been easy?
If there had been no bad times?

We all have scars. Inside and out. They do not define us. They do not dictate who we are. They are proof that we survive. That we can stand strong and face all the rubbish that life can throw at us and laugh in the face of adversity. Our scars are worn with pride because we are still here, still shouting into the void - is that all you’ve got?

Mostly because, well what is the alternative?
We are all stronger than we believe.
You are stronger than you believe.

Everything we have been through has shaped us, has left its mark, and has led us to be here, now, in this place, surrounded by the people who we love, friends, and family.

What would I like my legacy to be? I put my trust in spirit and the universe that those who need to hear my words will hear them when they need to hear them. I trust I am on the right path, and that all will be well. May we all be well and safe.

If you want to - take a look at the card for yourself and ask those questions about your own life, and reflect or journal on the answers you receive.

Food For Thought - A Poem I came across this week.

The Dash
by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak at a funeral of a friend.

He referred to the dates on the tombstone from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came the date of birth and spoke of the followingdate with tears, but he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time they spent alive on earth and now only those who loved them know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own, the cars... the house...the cash.

What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard; are there things You’d like to change? For you never know how much time is left that can still be rearranged.

To be less quick to anger and show appreciation more and love the people in our lives like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile... remembering that this special dash might only last a little while.

Linda Ellis’ Website

This past week:

Crazy weather aside, I do love this time of year, the leaves are turning, and the days and nights are cooler. Our thoughts turn to warm stews, soups, and casseroles and lighting the log burner. Soon it will be time to put up the decorations - I love fairy lights on trees. Hush, now, I haven’t said the C word, although I did read somewhere that there are now fewer than 111 days to go, so if you are making gifts, you had best get a wiggle on…

We have begun to plan for next year’s crops on the allotment and everywhere I look I see adverts for autumn planting bulbs and vegetables. It was very peaceful sitting up the plot last Sunday with the plan printed off, probably about our tenth… We keep changing our minds as to whether we will grow spuds next year or not. I think we will end up planting some early potatoes, as nothing is finer than fresh new potatoes boiled with mint with a little bit of butter. Nom Nom.

The planning and choosing I have found very hopeful and satisfying, being able to look forwards like this is a blessing. May all your plans come to a successful conclusion, whether they be long-term or short.

I am sorry if this letter has been a little introverted this week, I had a doctor’s appointment on Friday, with an urgent two-week referral now in place for a hospital appointment and I am a little worried. If you think of it, please add me to your prayers. Hopefully, it will be nothing to worry about, but it is human nature to think of the worst-case scenario.

Whatever is coming, is coming, although the next time I plan my life on the earth plane I vote for fewer obstacles and traumas.

I can’t stop what is coming, it is my destiny.

Now, come on, be honest how many other people had Darth Vader in your minds then? ‘Luke, it is your destiny,’ followed by the obligatory heavy breathing… 😁😁😁

Until next time, as ever, may your angels and guides watch over you and protect you until we meet again.

Love and Light,

Tracy

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Links:

*Wild Card Tarot Book by Jen Cownie and Fiona Lensvelt

Linda Ellis’ Website

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